(Minghui.org) I have practiced Falun Dafa for many years, yet I believed that I had a lot of karma, many human notions and attachments, poor inborn quality, and not really a predestined relationship with Dafa. Thus, I instinctively knew that it was impossible for me to become a diligent practitioner. Therefore, I dragged my feet and improved very slowly. However this changed after I studied the Fa a lot.
Notions that Blocked Me from Improving
At the onset of the persecution, I lost the environment of group Fa study and had only three Dafa books on hand: Zhuan Falun, Explaining the Content of Falun Dafa, and Zhuan Falun Fajie – The Law of Zhuan Falun Explained. I received new Fa lectures from fellow practitioners occasionally, but I read them only once or twice, and then passed them on to fellow practitioners.
When I finally got a computer, I downloaded Teacher's Fa lectures, but still read them only once. I slacked off from time to time. I even did not study the Fa for several consecutive days when I was not in a good cultivation state. I read Zhuan Falun only a couple of times a year.
Teacher has repeatedly emphasized the importance of Fa study, but I just remained in my on-and-off state. I admired diligent practitioners who read two or three lectures in Zhuan Falun daily. I lagged far behind. I hoped that I could make a breakthrough, but my notions blocked me from becoming diligent.
One day I had a chance to share cultivation experiences with a fellow practitioner. His words touched me greatly,
“Do not skip around when studying the Fa,” he said. “Just read one book after another in sequence. The more you study the Fa, the faster you will improve.”
I think Teacher arranged for me to make a breakthrough. This practitioner's words changed my way of Fa study. I suddenly knew how to study the Fa.
During the New Year holidays, I had over 20 days of vacation. I devoted all those days to studying the Fa. I forgot about anything else and concentrated on studying the Fa and doing the exercises every morning.
To my surprise, I was no longer absent-minded when I studied the Fa, and constantly felt that I had elevated. This encouraged me greatly and gave me much confidence. Apart from meals and sleep, I studied the Fa all the time. I studied the Fa more than 10 hours every day.
I read a little slowly in the beginning, but then I read faster, and sometimes I read four books a day. I read through all of Teacher's Fa lectures within one month. I also read Zhuan Falun many times, watched videos of Teacher's Fa lectures, and listened to audio recordings.
My cultivation state was very good during that one month. I felt that the bad substances in my body disintegrated, one layer after another. My thoughts were opened layer-by-layer, the shells peeled off layer-by-layer, and my xinxing also improved.
After I went back to work, I read all of the Fa lectures within another month. Then, I slacked off because I got busy with other things. The third time, it took four months to read all of the Fa lectures, and the fourth time it took me five months.
My cultivation state changed continuously and I understood the real meaning of being reborn.
Before then, I was very negative and often interfered with by human notions and thought karma. I was depressed whenever I was in a bad mood or encountered some minor problem. However after much Fa study, I could keep an optimistic and peaceful mind.
Many other human attachments also disappeared during Fa study. Eventually, I no longer remembered the attachments that I had let go. My mind gradually became clear. I really experienced the feeling of a clear mind and transparent body.
“A person is like a container, and he is whatever he contains.” (“Melt into the Fa” in Falun Dafa Essentials for Further Advancement)
Once I filled my mind with Teacher's Fa, the bad things disintegrated. I felt that I was elevating very fast.
“You know, it’s just like the layers of an onion being peeled off one by one until eventually the core is reached.” (“Teaching the Fa at the Conference in New Zealand”).
Human thoughts are eliminated layer by layer in Dafa cultivation. Another layer surfaces after one layer is eliminated, and then comes another layer. We also improve layer-by-layer in Fa study.
Cultivating Genuinely and Diligently
For a period of time, I was attached to how fast I read. As a result, I was not focused. Teacher taught us about “natural attainment without pursuit.” Once I realized this, I adjusted my mindset immediately and let go of the attachment of pursuing speed during Fa study. My cultivation also returned to the right state.
I adjusted my time for doing the exercises recently. Now, I can ensure that I study the Fa for more than two hours a day.
I also take time out for Dafa projects. The more I improve in cultivation, the more urgency I feel about the Fa-rectification progress. As Dafa practitioners, we can't slack off even a little bit at such moments because the Fa-rectification period is nearing the end.
Now I can walk steadily on my cultivation path, something that is essential for a Dafa practitioner in the Fa-rectification period. I've become a genuine and diligent Dafa disciple. This was only possible after I understood the value of Fa study.
I will keep on cultivating diligently and do everything that a practitioner should do well.
Thank you, Master!Thank you, fellow practitioners!